140 days later

Time sure flies! It has been 140 days since I marry the love of my life. I've never been happier than where I am right now. There was a time when I thought I could never experience happiness such as this. There was once when my heart was so broken and shattered that I thought I lost the capacity to love again.

D9

I've always love the number nine.
It's my favourite number.
Why?
Because I was born in September.
That was a very predictable answer, wasn't it?

Earlier,
I was searching for suitable songs for our recession.
I was playing a random playlist on Youtube.

My eyes became teary when the song Moving On by Kodaline was played.
I am bride with a heavy baggage.

"Sometime in the future we can share our stories
When we won't care about all of our mistakes, our failures, and our glories
But until that day comes along I'll keep on moving on. I'll keep on moving on"

D13

As I was getting my hair pampered a little today, my thoughts wandered to the days before I met you. Tears came rolling down my cheeks as I was remembering how painful my past was. 

The hairdresser noticed my teary eyes. I just said, "Some chemical got into my eyes."

Truth was, my heart still ache whenever I reminisce those naive old days of my youth. 

If I could turn back in time, I would tell my younger self to be wiser. 

I am forever grateful for your presence, your companionship, your support, your love. Thank you for being you, and for accepting me as I am. 

2002

My 13 year old self could never have guessed that I would be marrying him, the then 15-year-old fierce looking boy. 

D-15

15 days

In 15 days from today, I am going to marry the love of my life. 

It is really hard to express my thoughts and emotions right now into words.

No words can ever describe these feelings of mine accurately.

Even so, I want to write them down now. Pouring down what is inside my heart into its physical form so that when I return to this place someday, I would say, "Ahh so that was what I felt back then."

I want to be able to recall this wonderful mystifying inner thoughts. 

Because..

It is easier to forget than to remember,

especially when the hecticness of life takes the better of us.

Someday, 

Things may get difficult between us, in a lot of ways. 

When that day comes, when life gives us lemons, I want to be able to remember these good old days.

I want to be able to be holding on to the memories of the good times we had together.

I want to be able to remember how much I love him.

I want to be able to remember how much he loves me.

I want to be able to remember the joy he brought into my life.

In 15 days from today, I will no longer be alone in traveling this voyage of life.

Right now, I am filled with joy and peace.

I am forever grateful to God for bringing us together.

I look forward to share this life with him, experiencing new things together, exploring new places together. 

And eventually, having a family together. Me, him, our kids. 

In 15 days from today, 

I will say "I do".